something lost is the greatest evidence of “had”
Mackenzie Carignan
play
sand sticks in layers landscape his arm
gouge
that grammar will never reach you. form
hill
stimulate the seedlings, starlings, sterling dress
imagine
beautiful triangular ships arriving
imagine
that you might have multiplied and burrowed
imagine
the wood without the water. parched
bring
his significance is blinding. even his own sadness
If Ever Then
Mackenzie Carignan
I. Contradiction ice: this
spring. You wouldn’t be blue
otherwise.
Even when I don’t
want to think of you,
you bang through
with the swoop of marimba,
cupped palm full of kumquats,
then flying.
II. We brachiate: shallow root-ball,
dry fronds, living best in the heat,
close and lazy as the city becomes
around us. Telephone: say you still.
Our language, winged, coalesced.
III. I can’t imagine phosphorescence
without wanting you in the sand,
arms awkward obstacles in the way
of this partial, combustible union.
On our way to
maybe still.
IV. Be again . . .
we carve valleys, bring me thinking:
what if we collided in the sky
in the street
came apart (broke) in half our
shadows fat, forgiving and giving
inside cars, between streetlight and cobblestone?
V. Crow, barn swallow,
mourning dove, seagulls
colliding above us
like streetlights.
You think we once had wings
or should have become
or will
or will
someday.
Mackenzie Carignan teaches in Broomfield, Colorado. She recently finished her Ph.D. at the University of Illinois at Chicago in English, Creative Writing. She is part of the Black Radish Press consortium and edits the online poetry journal listenlight with Jesse Crockett. For more info, please visit her website: http://www.mackenziecarignan.com.
Beautiful poem: the title grabbed me from a distance, the verses fly, effortlessly evoking my own losses. Thanks.